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April 15 2022 - Feelings and frogs
Hello everynyan god I'm never saying that again
Today I woke up at 05:00 A.M. because God hates me! And my fucking eye hurts like hell and it's been hurting for a few days but it's getting better, I think. I think I need to see a mental health professional because everything is becoming too overwhelming. I find myself sitting in my room for HOURS just thinking about my silly little imaginary world that I escape to when real world events make me feel like offing myself.
ANYWAY I have a new interest...FROGS! I've always kinda disliked frogs because they're a bit gross let's be real, but yesterday I found out that yeah, I fucking love frogs. I love them so much, even more than I love myself.
I don't have anything else to say. I'm tired.
April 13 2022 - A rant regarding school
This one's a bit gross oops
First entry and I am fucking livid!!! Why the fuck must going to school be so painful? Why is it required? At most, it should be an optional thing for those who learn better by observing and listening to a person teaching something. I'M NOT ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. Some people (SUCH AS MYSELF) learn better by...get this...sitting alone, with written instructions/illustrations, learning at their own pace! WHY THE FUCK IS THAT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND??!?!?! Not to fucking mention, it always - ALWAYS - starts early in the morning. We're also expected to get a full 8+ hours of sleep because that's kinda necessary for us to function, which is impossible when school starts at 08:00 A.M. sharp and you live in the middle of nowhere which forces you to get up at like 05:00. You know?
Also, something stupid that I never understood...why the fuck are we supposed to respect our teachers. Like what makes a teacher so special for them to have full control over what I do throughout the day? Motherfucker, what's fucking stopping me from either going home or jumping out the window? What is this, a prison? Why do you get to dictate what I can or cannot do, when I get to go home, and most importantly, WHEN I GET TO GO TO THE BATHROOM? What the fuck, do you want me to essentially piss myself in the middle of class? What the fuck is wrong with you???
All of this is amplified if you're autistic or otherwise neurodivergent. See, when I was a wee lad (aka age 6-13) I was always being forced to interact with people. No, I was not being asked if I wanted to interact with other kids, I was being forced to do that shit. Guess what that did to me!!! That's right! I became even more withdrawn. Who would've thought!!!!!! Forcing a very visibly autistic kid (the symptoms were very clear jsyk I'm not exaggerating) to interact with other kids when they clearly do not want to does the opposite of what you intended?? UN-FUCKING-BELIEVABLE!!!!!!!!!!
There's obviously a lot more that happened back when I used to attend school, but I won't get into that today. Maybe in another entry.
Schools are just mandatory youth prisons and you cannot change my mind.